Side Effect #1: Self-Love Allowed Me To Love My Body

IMG_0626This one might seem like a no brainer; when you love who you are you most likely will feel better about the way you look; the mind and body are connected in very deep ways. But the way my body looks hasn’t been as much of a concern as how my body feels. Before I go into the difference between the two ideas, I want to explain my background with body positivity. I mainly want to go through my history so you can all understand that this is something I will always be up and down with, and I hope that you can find it relatable and realistic. Body positivity is the hardest part of self-love for me and it always will be.

I was never ashamed of my looks, until I was. I grew up on stage so I found confidence in myself very early on. I never felt like I was different or wanted to change the way I looked until high school. Bullying started when my weight began to change. Halfway through Freshman year, my body began to hold weight differently and gain weight easier. I was a cheerleader and heavily involved in theatre, and that was when I first started getting severely bullied for my size. I am sure that it was happening behind my back for much longer before it started being said to my face. But when I was finally told to my face by a classmate that I was too fat to play the part in the show that I wanted to play, I felt like that was what every person thought about me. I will never forget that moment and how it made me feel. It sent me into a downward spiral and it seemed to open a door of never ending comments about my only worth being my weight. It made me a mean, unhappy person who strived and begged for acceptance by my peers, which turned into manipulative and verbally abusive “friendships”.

I was told I shouldn’t cheer or dance because no one wants to see my fat jiggling around. My senior year (the heaviest weight I have ever been) I was called a whale in front of a majority of my classmates. I was told by my “friends” at the time that I was too fat to love, and that I needed to do whatever I could to make myself skinny before college began. This started another downward spiral. By the time college had started, I had already been accustom to hiding the fact I wasn’t eating and I was working out way too much. But I didn’t let anyone know this was happening because I “wasn’t skinny enough to have an eating disorder.” I believed this too, as the people in my life who I knew had eating disorders just so happened to also be smaller than I was. But starving myself and running 3 miles a day is a problem. Trying to hide it from others by occasionally eating a cupcake or half a burger but secretly hating myself for eating those calories and trying to run them out is a problem. Losing 50lbs from restriction is self-harm and it is a problem. But I was losing weight, so no one seemed to know happening in such a dangerous way. This story is one I will get into more in-depth someday, but overall my point is that just because someone who is “bigger” is losing weight does not mean it has been in a healthy way. Check in on them.

Suddenly, things changed. I got myself out of a toxic living situation, and out of toxic relationships by being cast in my college musical, and it brought new meaning to eating. I started dance classes again which made me feel whole. I knew I needed to actually eat in order to get through the classes, and with this slowly came weight gain. But it was at first in a positive way. I was gaining weight by going out to eat with friends and socializing. I felt good about my body because I was happy with my life. Surprisingly, I was okay with this. I realized that I loved that my body could create art and that the way I was built was just different than others. And my new friends never made me feel anything less than beautiful, smart, and strong.

Then things changed again, more stress and toxic problems happened causing my next struggle with eating: binging. I would restrict myself by believing coffee and bananas were enough to live off of until dinner, then eat 3 orders of Taco Bell. I was restricting then binging, and this was much harder to stop. I hated myself for it, but eating a ton of food at one time made me feel better mentally. I could eat a Chipotle burrito and chips for dinner, eat 4 pieces of cake afterwards, and tell myself that it was solving all my problems. But in the morning I would be disappointed when I tried to slide my jeans on that no longer fit. It wasn’t that I didn’t like the way I looked, because I still liked parts of my body, but I wasn’t feeling good. It didn’t feel good to not fit in my clothes and to wake up with pain in my stomach and bloating around my face.

Now, I will also explain that although I was eating bad, I also gained so much weight from the hormonal treatments from my chronic condition, adenomyosis. If this condition is new to you, read my post about my story here. I was on and off so many treatments, it messed with my body and mind. It created so much stress and imbalance that my weight gain was deemed normal by medical professionals. It was something I begged to not happen, but the doctors told me I would (while also telling me to lose weight…this was very confusing!). I allowed myself to use this as an excuse just to avoid talking about my binge eating issues. This went on until December 2017, when I weighed almost as much as I did my senior year in high school.

When I started my most recent health journey, it was because I was tired of feeling so incredibly awful. Feeling, not looking. I didn’t feel like myself anymore. It was partially stress/anxiety, but also partially my adenomyosis. So, my new, more understanding doctor and I made a plan. She wanted me to eat an anti-inflammatory diet. I became gluten-free and dairy limited. This was a main part of my inspiration for this blog, to make my new lifestyle a positive experience for myself. Through this, I’ve learned about eating foods that are simple and actually beneficial for you. I’ve tried new foods that are now a major part of what I eat, as well as began craving my own cooking verses eating out. Why? Because eating my own foods made my body feel better. Through this, I’ve lost 20lbs. Not by tracking calories or by restricting what I can and cannot eat, but by learning about balance and realizing how to properly fuel my body and better my relationship with food.

IMG_0488The thing that people don’t often associate with body positivity is weight loss. Because body positivity is all about loving the skin your in, which I stand behind 100%. But there is also the fact that sometimes the skin your in is unhealthy and is causing more problems than you realize. Even though I was okay with the way I looked 20lbs ago and definitely still flaunted what my mama gave me, I was extremely unhealthy. Body positivity, in my eyes, goes hand-in-hand with self-love. And with self-love comes self-care. And with self-care comes healthy habits. I started eating unprocessed and healthier foods as a way to take care of myself because I knew I wasn’t getting the nutrients I needed. I started working out again and pushing what I thought were my exercise limits in a healthy way because I knew I needed to move my body and gain muscles.

I realized I wasn’t losing weight because I hated my body. I was losing weight because I wanted to take care of my body.

So yes, weight loss has helped me love my body. But it isn’t just because I look better, but because I feel better. I feel strong, I feel healthy, and I don’t wake up feeling bloated and with a stomach ache that lasts all day. There is absolutely nothing wrong with losing weight for health reasons. There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving yourself and your body enough to realize you need to change the way you eat and live your life. Do I still eat potato chips and Taco Bell? Sometimes, yes I do. But I have learned to eat in order to fuel my body, not to make my mind feel better. The way I choose to eat and exercise was made out of self-love and self-care. My weight loss has made me more body positive because I am taking care of my body. I am allowing myself to lose fat and gain muscle, and I will not apologize for loving my body then, now, or in the future.

August 2017 vs August 2018

I know that all of this was a lot, but the bottom line is that my body positivity and confidence is at the level that it is because of the relationship I have created with myself. Over the past 10 months, I have worked so incredibly hard at changing the inside of me and how I thought about myself, and I truly believe that it is showing on the outside. I know how cliché it sounds to say that the inside is what matters and that your inside will shine brighter than your outside, but I am convinced that this is true. I feel healthier, I love who I am, and I love the way I look.

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5 Basic Essential Oil Blends

My Relationship with Essential Oils

img_6261-2.jpgI first learned about essential oils in college. I suffered from really awful migraines (you know, the ones where the light burns and you vomit from dizziness and pain…) after having multiple concussions (cheerleading and car accidents…). It was starting to affect my dance class attendance and my professor one day handed me a roll-on bottle. She told me to rub it on my temples, neck, and upper shoulders. This worked almost instantly. I had been prescribed so many pain killers that I ended up being allergic to, told to take way too much ibuprofen, and just rest when I didn’t feel well; none of those solutions worked. But this bottle of magic changed my life. I would feel a migraine coming, roll some oils on, and continue my day. Pure. Magic.

I then started exploring other uses for essential oils and my professor would tell me as much as she knew. I started using lavender oil to help me calm down, unwind, and get some sleep. I used eucalyptus oil on days my allergies would kill me. I was obsessed within a few months. In college, I also took a course on Alternative Medicine and Therapies, which of course included a lecture on essential oils. I was happy to share what I knew and to learn even more from that point. I started convincing my friends and family to try them out too. At first, my family was very resistant, but then one day my mom asked if she could try something for her sinus headache. My mix was the only thing that helped her.

I think we turn to medicine too quickly. I 110% believe in doctors, hospitals, and modern medicine (I take hormonal birth control pills and have a prescription nausea pill that are in my life) but I think there are a variety of ways to heal our bodies without always turning to medicine. Alternative medicine is all about what you put in, on, and around your body. It matters what you eat, it matters what chemicals are on your skin, and it matters what air you breathe in. This is exactly why I started my wellness journey, so I could discover ways to heal my body without putting harmful chemicals or pills that give me awful side effects in my body.

I am writing this article based off of what works well for me. I know there are a lot of people out there who share their own knowledge of essential oils, so I am here to share what I know and what I have found to be best for my body. I invite you to try what I have discovered, and tweak anything if needed! Let me know if you do, because I am always to try new things.

Ways to Use Essential Oils

  • Aromatherapy: This is probably the most common way to use essential oils because it is simple and makes the room smell amazing. Essential oil diffusers are designed to mix water and oils to create a mist of essential oils. The air will be full of wonderful scents and all the benefits. Simply fill your diffuser with water (making sure not to get any cords wet), add a few drops of your oils, turn it on, and enjoy. I’ve had a few diffusers that only seem to last a couple of years at a time (mind you I use mine for at least 10 hours a day). I am currently using my little brother’s old one (see, I turned my family on to oils) and I actually love it. Here is the link on Amazon. Mine is dark brown and has pretty decent settings!
  • Topically: Essential oils are immediately absorbed by the skin because they are fat soluble, however you should never apply them directly to the skin without being diluted first. This was a mistake I used to make and I actually damaged my skin, so be careful! To dilute or mix your essential oils, use a what is called a carrier oil. A carrier oil is cold-pressed and do not evaporate like essential oils. I personally use coconut oil or castor oil, but I know others who use almond oil, grape seed oil, jojoba oil, and avocado oil as well. Be sure to buy a carrier oil that is all natural and if possible, organic. I will tell you more about the different places to apply your oils later in this article, but some common place are your wrists, temples, feet, neck, and abdomen.
  • Steam inhalation: This usage is great if you are using oils for colds or allergies. They can also be beneficial to your skin! To do this, boil about 3 cups of water and transfer to a bowl. Add 3-6 drops of oil to the water. Place the bowl on a steady, flat surface. Cover your head and bowl with a towel and never get closer than about 10 inches from the bowl. Slowly, inhale the steam and take deep breaths.
  • Ingest/Internal Usage: If you have good quality oils and they are appropriately marked, you can actually ingest your essential oils. Adding oils to water is a great way to get the benefits while also drinking a flavored drink that keeps you completely hydrated. You can also add them to plain sparkling water for a customized fizzy drink, use them in tea for even more flavor, and even in cooking/baking. I once made delicious lavender/lemon cupcakes that were fully flavored from essential oils. It is a great way to get benefits and be creative!

5 Basic Essential Oil Blends

In this post, you will see I use Plant Guru essential oils. This is my preferred, all natural brand, so please keep negative comments about my choice to yourself. I know everyone has their own preference and this is mine! I love how high their potency is and the therapeutic grade quality of the oils! You can find them on Amazon; this pack is a great deal, and a really great place to start. I just went over this with my girl Kara today (;

  1. Goodnight Blend- Lavender, Frankincense, and Sweet Orange This blend is IMG_6256-2what I use in my diffuser on most nights. I recently featured it on my Instagram story for those who follow me there (@wellnessandwelldrinks). These oils all help relieve stress and add calmness to the room as I sleep. Lavender oil, one of my favorites, reduces stress/anxiety, helps improve sleep, and can cure headaches. Frankincense oil can help focus the energy in the room, and help with your sinuses. Sweet Orange boosts your immune system, eliminates toxins, and helps brighten your mood. I also use this blend in a spray bottle with water that I mist over my bed before I sleep. I find myself waking up less in the night as well as waking up feeling refreshed instead of groggy.

  2.  Shark Week Relief Blend- Lavender, Peppermint, and Frankincense Ladies, IMG_6267this one is for YOU! I just told my friend about this wonderful blend and I’m excited to hear back about her results! We just learned that lavender can relieve stress, and that includes stress on the body caused by cramps. It will help your body relax and ease the tension. Frankincense is also really great for relieving inflammation, which is what causes a lot of the cramping and pain during your period. Peppermint is the BEST pain relief oil! It cools and relaxes your body and provides great pain relief. I apply this topically with coconut oil on my lower abdomen a few times a day.

  3. Breathe Blend- Eucalyptus, Peppermint, and Lemon Grass Cold? Flu? IMG_6266Allergies? Feeling like you need to open your sinuses or lungs? This is a great blend for you. Peppermint’s strong scent helps relieve headaches and sinus pressure almost instantly. Eucalyptus has many benefits, but in this case will help relieve decongestion. Lemon Grass, if you knew me in college, you know I often use this as a perfume because I love the scent so much! In this blend, it helps kill off the bacterias and viruses that could be making you feel crummy. I like to use this in my diffuser on nights I feel a cold coming on, as well as apply to my temples and neck topically. I also use steam inhalation with this blend to relieve symptoms when I have a cold or bad allergies.

  4. Warm and Cozy- Clove Bud, Orange, and Cinnamon Okay, so this one doesn’t IMG_6260-2have a specific benefit, but it does make your room smell like a beautiful autumn day. If you are in the mood to get cozy and feel warm, this is a great blend.  Orange is a mood booster, Clove refreshes your senses and kills bacteria, and finally cinnamon decreases inflammation as well as helps relieve depression. So maybe there are some benefits, but I only use this in my diffuser when I’m missing Halloween season. I am also highly allergic to Cinnamon when used topically, which is why you should always test these out before spreading them all over your body. Cinnamon will stay in my diffuser and away from my skin!

  5. Post Workout Blend- Peppermint, Clove, and Eucalyptus Sore after working IMG_6262hard? Try making this blend! All of these oils will help aid in recovery and relax any sore muscles. I love putting 2-3 drops of each in a small dish, mixing it with coconut oil, and applying to my shoulders, lower back, and hamstrings after a hard workout! I love how it allows me to keep going during the day, and if I need it, I will apply again at night and allow my body to really get some rest! Be cautious about applying after a shower as the peppermint will become cooler the warmer you are. It can having a burning sensation and nobody wants that after a tough workout!

 

 

 

HIIT Treadmill Workout – Booty and Legs

I have never done a HIIT workout, but I have been doing a lot of research. I want to make a statement before I begin: I am not a personal trainer, nor am I saying this workout is the only way to workout. In fact, I try new workouts all the time because there are so many ways out there. I am doing what my body needs, and if this isn’t for you, that is okay!

What is HIIT? High Intensity Interval Training. HIIT alternates between high-intensity and low-intensity exercise and can be used with both anaerobic (weights) and aerobic (cardio.) Physiologists have found these kind of workouts burn fat more accurately and allows you to exercise at very high intensities for a longer period of time verses exercising at a steady rate. Another benefit of HIIT is called the “afterburn effect” that increases your metabolism and burns more calories for up to 24 hours after your workout.

Why am I considering switching to HIIT? I love long cardio sessions. I am not someone who gets bored doing cardio, and I don’t have a hard time pushing myself. I love spending an hour on the elliptical or going on a 3-mile run. However, I have started noticing that those workouts are not helping me lose as much weight as I would like. Instead, I’ve been maintaining my weight, so I am in need of a change. I want to stretch myself and push myself like never before. I want that afterburn effect because I want my body to continue to burn fat so I can gain muscle. After my 35 minute HIIT cardio session, I did an easy 10 minute stair master workout to get up to 45 minutes of cardio. I then did my free weight exercises, booty workouts, and a quick stretch…and I was still sweating like crazy by the time I got to the car. I felt confident after my workout and really accomplished. I am going to try HIIT all week and see how I feel afterwards!

HIIT Treadmill Workout – Booty and Legs

I designed this workout for myself after doing a ton of research (I love research so I had a lot of fun with this!) I wasn’t sure how it was going to go, but now that I know how wonderful it is, I thought I would share it with you! I kept it on my screen and left my phone on the treadmill so I could reference it as I went. There were times I thought I was too tired, but I pushed through! I burnt 350 calories and had a distance of 2.5 miles!

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Try this out and see how you like it! Comment below with any information you have about HIIT or workout suggestions.